All that you did was love

~Mama I love you, Mama I care
Mama I love you, Mama my friend
You're my friend, you're my friend ~


I've been missing my mum a lot lately..Wanted to draw something for her even though she can't see it. I wanted to draw something happy this time. I know she'd like it for me to be happy. It's hard to be though. She was my best friend. and pretty much the only person (adult wise ) in my family that actually LOVED and gave a fuck about me. She didn't put up with my grandpas abusive shit when I came along. She toughed it out when he hit her, but she didn't tolerate it when he'd hit me. Never. She'd scoop me up and leave. She was so wonderful to be around. So yes. I wanted to draw a happy picture with me as an adult like I am now, and her.


I remember; When she used to turn up her music really loud, be it the Cranberries, or ABBA, or Spice Girls, the Beatles, Disney music. and dance around the house with me. to her ' groovy tunes' as she called it. or blast the music and burst through the bathroom door when i'm taking a bath and act like a dork. She always knew how to make me smile. She'd sit down with me and watch all of my Disney VHS with me and make me snacks as we watched. We'd laugh and sing all of the songs. She'd even watch the same movie with me over and over if I wanted to. It didn't bother her any. She always reminded me of Ariel. because she had such pretty reddish hair. She could even sing like her. and she LOVED the ocean and marine life. Her favourite animal was sea turtles :'3 If I ever found a sea turtle plushie or figure or sculpture i'd always ask my grandmother to buy it for my mum. and she usually did. I wanted her happy. granted I did throw fits as a kid sometimes but I'm pretty sure that's normal? Even if I was selfish sometimes, I still wanted her to be happy. We always had silly inside jokes for eachother. Honestly most of them were pretty uh....vulgar? She had left my gummi's in her car once on accident. aaannnd when I opened them they were all melted together in this...greenish mass of blob. and She laughed and told me it was a snot rocket. and uh. I ate it. ^^ ; it was just candy of course though. she just liked being vulgar. I guess that's where I get it from too.


Really though, she was an amazing person. and recently my brother has been depressed because he never really got to know her.. He was only 1 when she died. I was only 8. and my mum was 28. so yeah...she died very young..and I miss her every single day. I know my brother does too, even if he didn't get to spend much time with her.

I'll never let him forget you. I promise. and I hope you are at least somewhat proud of me.



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To: My Ariel January 7th 1977-August 28th 1999

I'm so glad I got to be ' Part of your world '

I love you.